I hate to be a part of this age old cliche, but I think I’m convinced that people really go through a quarter life crisis. Some people may have luckily figured out their goals early in life but unfortunately, I’m not said people. Growing up, I was told that after getting a college degree and securing a job, life will be set. There was a huge emphasis on education and it seemed as if life would be perfect once this is achieved. Currently, I hold a bachelor’s degree plus a minor on the side and I have a job in line with it. Do I feel complete, accomplished and happy? I don’t think so.
In fact, I don’t think I’ll ever be happy with what I’m currently doing. Yes, I feel a sense of accomplishment when I complete tasks given to me, as well as when I’m complimented at what I do. But in the end, I do not enjoy it. It’s just that, a job. A job that pays my indulgences and my monthly bills. A job that gives me stress at times and a job that gives me some sense of purpose everyday. And this is unfortunate because I feel stuck. I don’t know what to do. Some people go to grad school to buy some time but it’s not an option in my case since I can’t afford it. How do I even figure out my passion in life? I like a lot of things, but to single out one thing is quite difficult.
Does my love for music count? Or my addiction to Netflix? And coming up with this blog? Somebody help me figure out what to do because honestly, these everyday routines are becoming really, really dull. Good thing my job got me a boyfriend at least.
between love & hate 