I’ve quit smoking for months now and I don’t even miss it. I’ve been offered to smoke countless times since but I’ve successfully declined all occasions, including nights of drunken stupor. Maybe I was never addicted to smoking, maybe it was just a phase in my life.
If I’m being honest, I only have two addictions: coffee; and chasing someone who gives me the least amount of attention. I don’t think I can quit coffee yet, but I resolve to quit the latter.
I would say most of us seek attention. Especially in this generation when all forms of attention seeking platforms are readily available. But I hate how I always end up crying for attention from someone who probably thinks I exist only occasionally. What do I get from this? What do I get from attempting to maybe get more than a shrug? Nothing but embarrassment and self-loathing.
Hence, going forward, I refuse to get treated like dirt. I know this has become an addiction because it’s been tough for me to quit. I get a random nudge, and I’m dragged back into craving the attention that’s not given to me.
So I quit.
I resolve to quit the endless infatuation with games, maybes and boy hysteria.
I’m an independent girl who deserves more than a freaking nudge and I don’t have time for anything less.
Now let me go get a shot of espresso with my coffee please.